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Well, sorry to keep up this low writing kinda thing- but the fact is that the whole holiday is drawing stuff outta me. And I have this really gooeey oozy writers' block in front of my brain. So I really feel like shutting my pie hole and quit this entire hobby that has been with me for like more than a year until I feel like writing again. Meanwhile I will be exposing myself to all the blogs out there (except the explicit ones yeh ;) )- flogs, vlogs, even splogs. So yarh- here is a quite nice blog I came across today. Kudos people. I'm off to the road off blogging =)

It's pretty chilly from where I'm typing now which is a good thing cause it helps me saves on electricity bills. Although the chiliness is no where as chilly as someplace say Siberia- it's chilly enough for sunny almost-on-the-equator Singapore. According to my Forecastfox extension on my Internet browser- Mozilla Firefox- information taken from AccuWeather.com: Singapore is currently Most Cloudy, and 25 degrees celcius. The wind is blowing from NNW- wherever that is and the speed is at 1 m/s- talk about informative. And it even gives me tomorrow's and the day after's weather too. I would love to blah more about the weather but my blog is not weathergirl.blogspot.com.

Today was an overly tiresome day- in fact I am immensely tired now- but throughout the long 1.5hour jounrney home I had alot of brainwaves moving and fidgeting so I had already planned out what I wanted to write for the day's entry. If would be nice if I had a PDA so I could write straight away on the spot so I wouldn't miss any freakin' details- but whatever- make do with what you have =)

It's pretty frightening to be on a bus that you don't know goes where. Okay, I knew where it went but I haven't actually been on the bus before so I didn't know if it was actually heading towards the place I wanted to go. So I sat on Bus 222 from Chairman Josiah's cell hoping that what my friend said was right. Going though the many blocks and the neighbourhood of Chai Chee- a place I probably have never set foot in my life (and you thought Singapore was small!). My dad had probably drove through the area but that was on WHEELS.

And zooming here, zooming there- my brain started to thwart- worrying that the bus was not going where I wanted it to go. Then! (then then then then then then...) I saw the MRT STATION! My senses dragged me back into deja vu where I remembered taking 31/196/197 from the further school bus-stop to the Bedok station. Times where I'll eat lunch with SBF hopefully the bus will come JUST when we reach the stop. But then I found the faster way! Through 55/76! And yes I have =)

Okay, I shall take a rest now so I can have enough energy to watch Daejanggeum an hour later. Or perhaps I should take a glass of water too- in case I leak another gazillion litres of tears.

Ciao! (courtesy of dino)

I'm losing the inspiration to blog. However, I have to keep up with the urges to write everyday. My hits are getting lesser and I tell myself I should really spent my time on things more meaningful- not that blogging isn't meaningful but there are, I believe more meaningful things than blogging out there. I can expose myself to the world of Literature- there are so many books in Borders/Kinokuniya/MPH/Times/New-Popular-at-Bras-Basah which I can read (Not that I spend my money there! I can just sit and lean on the shelves and read and be a typical Singaporean!) Music and Podcasts I can listen to. Video Podcasts (if my C Drive allows it) and tv shows I can watch. Novels I can write (FYI I have stopped NaNoWriMo-ing- perhaps I shall try next year), And by Christmas next month I can start being a diaryist too! Because that's when I turn 13 3/4 *sniggers* just that I would probably be in Hong Kong vacationing during that time. Probably only.

It's another 3 weeks and 2 days before I shall fly on the Australian Airlines (direct flight) to East Timor. In case you don't know where I was referring to on one of my previous entries (here) it was East Timor. I thanked God for a million times I was not travelling via Gauruda Indonesia (much to Oswin's discontent. I suppose.) so the chances of my flight crashing in the *refers to world map* Flores Sea *cough* will be much lesser.

I will remind myself to take Malaria pills because on countless occasions I have obtained mosquitio bites when others had none. For some reason the mosquitos like my blood and that (believe me) is not a good thing. Unlike the man who can see ethereal beings, which some people consider a gift- no one considers having mosquito-sought-after blood a gift. And since normal mosquitos like my blood- malaria mosquitos should too- a major unfortunate. Still I am determined to enjoy myself in the world's newest independant state.

Had the AQ training of Doom yesterday. In case you're wondering what is AQ- it is a Boys' Brigade competition held annually to test the topography, fitness, endurance of BB Boys. Participants have to go through a gruelling 75km (this year) course competiting with the 100+ companies in Singapore. In the course- cycling, running, canoeing and other sports are competed and boys race to the finish line.

I really tell myself I shouldn't be doing this since I am a super unfit person and I shouldn't be doing things that are not suited for me. Actually I had already joined long ago but the reason why I am writing about this annual competition (and it's tough training) again is that the Second Singapore Company (normally known to members as "2nd COY") has engaged an alumnus as our trainer. And believe me- an alumnus trainer is far far tougher than a Sec 3 (next year Sec 4) senior. And more frightening too.

We started of the 2 hour long training with 1 hour worth of jumping jacks (with frequent breaks in between 30-80 counts of 4 of course) and then had a 3km run in step. I probably being the weakest runner (and in fitness level) was first in the "two lines". I really couldn't take it after the 2nd kilometer but the trainer sorta slowed down. Then we went to the tennnis court and had this jumping "game". We were split into two and then had to crouch down- sorta like leapfrog with more people and without touching the backs of our teammates- jumping around the entire tennis court. This 2 hours was a teeny-weeny bit less worst than hell although I haven't been to hell in my life before.

I am not determined to run at least for 20 minutes everyday except Sunday =)

And for some reason my shift 2 key and shift ' key has changed places. I hate it and end up typing @ every time I wanna type " and vice versa. It sucks.

168th Entry

Have you ever stepped on a nail? I mean snail? Because if you did I believe you would find it absolutely revolting. The shell- it cracks, then it comes to the gooey part- freaky. Well I didn't step on a snail today and I hope you didn't. I did before but lets not dig that up- it causes unpleasant memories.

Snails are not very nice creatures- however, like everything else on Mother Earth- has their purpose. I guess the purposes of snails just aren't good at all. They eat crops of Farmers fields (not that I'm an agriculture fan but I do eat vegetables don't I?) and create unpleasant memories. There are (I believe) many more disadvantages which I can find out if I use the amazing Google but I refuse because should I arrive at a page which gives me information brillante there would certainly be a (gross) picture of a slug/snail/mollusc/whatever which is also a reason why I won't be in the Science stream come Sec 3.

The French have gone crazy by believing that they can exterminate the snails by eating them. They call them escarots which sounds really fancy (now tell me which french word doesn't sound fancy?) but the taste ain't (which is ironic because I have never ate an escarot before so how the heck am I suppose to know the taste ain't fancy?). And somehow they influenced the Australiens to eat snails too and spread their delicacy to the rest of the world. I have never ate one in my life and never will- I even try my best not to touch them.

I leaked out gazillion litres of tears yesterday, first time after such a long time I cried so hard. It Sometimes it feels good to cry. The water falling down your cheeks blah blah, I just feel good after crying. And I try to cry in the night cause crying make you feel tired and thus lets you sleep like a baby. Zheng Shan Gong Niang Niang (Court Lady Jeong) passed away last night. Somehow, she reminds me of my grandmother who passed away 8 years ago. Brilliant in cooking (both) and affectionate- she seems like a grandma to me- and Jang-geum too =)


She kinda looks like Lisa Wang don't you think? (FYI thats Yeo Wong-gye lady who acted as Court Lady Jeong not my grandma)

Didn't get to watch Survivor at 2 today but after reference to the Survivor Guatemala Website I understand that Jamie got voted out. Ha! Seems like finally (FINALLY!!!) someone broke up the evil alliance! Definitely not rooting for anybody there (Steph, Rafe, Lydia, Judd) to win as Ultimate Survivor- and definitely not rooting for Gary. It's kind of ironical that in one of my earlier entries I said that I didn't like Danni but here am I now hoping she'll win the game.

So whatever, waiting for 10 tonight. But heck with the stupid commercials. I hate commercials.

PUBLIKITY STENT!
PUBLIKATHA STU!
PUBLISUTHU STA!
PUBLICITY STUNT! (*gasps* finally)


6Lpeople or NON-6Lpeople! Feel free to visit!

3 days later...

Sembawang Music Centre
Outlets: 22- Located all over Singapore, from North to North, erm, I mean South.
Most common price of CD: $18.95
Website rating: 2/10
Release dates accuracy: Ultimately poor
Big Fat Smiling rating: 6/10
Remarks: Nice organization

Music Junction
Outlets: 7- Located all over Singapore
Most common price of CD: I-have-no-idea dollars
Website rating: 6/10 -Search tool very inefficient
Release dates accuracy: Ultimately poor
Big Fat Smiling rating: 5/10
Remarks: More for Chinese music

CD-Rama (Popular)
Outlets: -unknown- but every Popular outlet has a CD area.
Most common price of CD: $18.95
Website rating: 0/10
Release dates accuracy: Ultimately poor
Big Fat Smiling rating: 4/10
Remarks: NIL

Borders
Outlets: 1 (Orchard)
Most common price of CD: About $25
Website rating: 0/10
Release dates accuracy: Very good
Big Fat Smiling rating: 7/10 (expensive prices!)
Remarks: Go there for the cafe, movies and books too!


HMV
Outlets: 2 (Orchard, City Hall)
Most common price of CD: $18.95
Website rating: 0/10
Release dates accuracy: Very good
Big Fat Smiling rating: 8/10
Remarks: Has earphones to listen to selected new CDs and has extensive range of videos too.

Only HMV and Borders has the current Carrie CD. Sembawang is releasing it "next month" *bullshit* and the rest didn't even tell me when they were releasing it. Just a "not yet" or "we dont't carry it". I think this is what you call shit. Ii'm tempted to buy it via Amazon but thinking of the air-fare I didn't. Then I called HMV. Yes! They have it. I shall visit HMV every time I need a CD from now on.

Please note that the above information might not be the truth- however, I have *ahem* tried my best to give the best information I can give.

I am lazy today. Actually not today but everyday. But hey- it's the holidays man, who isn't lazy. I shall give you a hundred reasons why I should be lazy.

1) It's the holidays
2) I should relax
3) Laziness will inculcate a lazy spirit in me- therefore I will be lazy forever-
thats a good thing.
4) Okay, I'm too lazy to go on.

So as I was lazy, I didn't go out to buy lunch. I'm tight on cash too- or rather I have better things to spend on so I didn't order Pizza Hut/KFC/Mac Delivery. Thus I cooked my own lunch. I forgot to take a picture of it BEFORE I ate it- only after finished did I remember. So here is my finished meal =)


Wait, do you see something? There! Over at the bottom of the plate! Zoom!


Zoom more you nincompoof!


Yesh! Thank you very much! Do you see it? Do you? It's the BFS URL in not light but Dark Soy Sauce! How the heck did it get there? How?

Take the wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It would been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

Tomorrow- it's tomorrow.

Travel, Mission, Adventure

What dangers await me?
Beyond the shores of Singapore?
What treasures find me?
In the plains of this foreign land.

450 years of foreign occupation.
The colonising Portugese.
The warring Japanese
And the violent Indonesians.

The newest independant state-
A choice made by the population.
50% unemployment.
What Singapore was years ago.

Reaching the shores of that country
How will the hoi polloi react?
Nervousness creeps.
Into this country that has gone through too much.

I await.
December 13th.

Exhausted

I am extremely exhausted.For some reason at the start of the day already I have felt tired. I think it's because I slpet late and woke up early. Yesterday I slpet at 1 am and today I woke up at 9 am. Thinking about it- it's already 8 hours, but I still feel tired. Weird is the body isn't it?

I stayed up late watching 大长今 (Jewel in the Palace) this entire week and it's probably the best Korean serial I have ever watched in my life. It's even better than 愛上女主播 (All About Eve)and 自从相识 (Forgot-the-english-name). I love Chang Jin and whatever and it's really a good show. I know this sucks as a critic's review but I wrote it more to be like a testimonial.

Went to many exhibitions today- including the Asian Field at LaSalle's Earl Lu by Anthony Gormley and his inspired Chinese citizens. My Dad's in Guangzhou- with the camera, thus I have no pictures. Ms Yap, however, took many for us and she's gonna pass it to me sooner or later. View the pictures here or here soon!

Also bought my long awaited diary today- courtesy of Wildborg (aka Oswin, God's friend, blah blah). Thanks alot good friend!

Kay, got to rush to net despite my exhausted state now. And I have to decide whether I should watch 大长今 or Survivor tonight. My mind is still debating.

Yay

I had a day off from work yesterday! But that also meant a day away from My Heaven =( So anyway, I'm back! Typing under the yellow light, big screen, G5, ipod blasting blah blah and waiting for Mr Ian Ho Yee Keong to send me the damned photos for the events pages I shall be doing later.

I connected with my dear Mother yesterday. It has been ages since I had gone shopping with her. So anyway, went to Borders with her and got 2 books from my "book allowance" that my aunty had given me. I spent about 35 bucks on 2 books. One which I have been trying to find for a super long amount of time. Presenting...



Do you see the magazine at the bottom of the book? Haha, yups, it is Aidy's favourite porn magazine!

The other book was About a Boy by Nick Hornby.

Then we had lunch at Sakae =) While we're enjoying Japanese food in the garden city, my Dad is having nice dimsum in Hong Kong/Guangzhou. He's visiting my paternal grandad and coming home on Friday. And yes, I am owing you photos, no one is mentioning bout them (yay!) so I shall take my time to update.

Which brings me to the end of my entry (I hafta work!) Going to an art exhibition tomorrow! Later.

My Heaven

I'm sitted in my Heaven.On a swivel Ikea black chair. In front of me is a 20inch screen that cost over a thousand dollars. There is a comfy cushion between my arms to keep me warm from the 18 degree celcius temperature from the air-conditioning in the room. The main lights are off, but a overhead Ikea lamp is shining from the table. My iPod is connected to the computer speakers and the noise is blasting. Beside my legs below the table is the Macintosh G5 which doesn't lag, hang or crash. Occasionally people start a chat with me on the MSN Messenger for Macintosh. I feel cozy and warm despite the 18 degree celcius temperature in the room. I decide to take a bite as I'm hungry. I walk out and get something to eat and run back up 6th storeys back to my heaven because I want to be in the wonderful place as long as possible. But I stop in front outside of my heaven. Because outside my heaven is a million dollar seaview. I get a seizure. My heaven is heaven.

My heaven the AEP Media Lab.

Well I have finished most of the stuff I am suppose to and am waiting for my senior to finish his bit and we'll step out of heaven to get more resources for other pages for The Victorian- the annual Victoria School yearbook. I did about 10+ pages which is really cool because I'm like only Sec 1? I think God is really great to give me such nice opportunities.

Right now on my iPod is playing "Beat Of My Heart" by Hil. I have exhausted every non-podcast track today already. Either that or someone deleted most of my songs. Oh well, it's another week (next tuesday!!!) when Carrie Underwood's debut album- Some Hearts will release. I shall buy it the day it is released. I'm sick of listening to my million-times-already-finished-listening songs in my iPod.

I just realised a novel is at least 50, 000 words. I shall work my brains out tonight.

I ponder about this word called future. I wonder what mine will be like. Not to far- next year. Of course- there's the BB promotion from a disgusting private to a more awe-ing Lance Coporal. Most of my seniors will also hopefully be promoted.

Then there's the run from clay in the AEP. No more ceramics classes next year. Not that I don't like Ceramics- I just don't like the getting messy, recycling clay and cleaning up part of it. Ian told me he did painting on ceiling boards for the first year. Which seems absolutely disgusting because he said after putting your hand on it for a long period of time (which is inevitable) your hand will get itchy. The following day? Spots. Yuck.

There's streaming. Not to concerned about it (despite it being probably the most important string of exams in everyone's Vie Victorienne besides the O Level) at this point.

There's history. Yucks. Oh well, 4 months isn't so bad. I guess.

There's Big Fat Smiles. =)

I can't think of more future.

Change of subject here. Today, 2 thing maxed out. One is Mdm Tazneen's cutie. A brand of a portable hard drive. It contains about 60gigs, but it has been maxed out. The other one is the Media Club computer. 70gigs and there's no more space in it. I look at my iPod (20gigs) then I realise how little sound I have (2.6 gigs). Haha.

Kays, have to find more space alternative.

P/s Sorry no photos, I didn;t my camera to school so I can't upload. If I'm coming back to work another 8 hours shift I shall take photos of my heaven and post both the heavenic entries AND the BBQ photos =)

Welcome to State of the Art!

Hello BigFatSmile-ders - which sounds weird but nevermind. Thanks for your considerate viewership- I can't believe I had like 44 hits despite my non-consistent updating this week. So here am I slacking in the Media Lab using the Mac G5 which is totally cool. Madcat just told me it cost 4688SGD- I think I'll stick to the iBook =), after all, there are G5s everywhere in the IT Lab.

So yup. this place is totally cool and I have like 2 chapters covered in my novel- about a 1000 words down- 80% more to go. I think I'll make it. I'm currently pestering Madcat to join too but now I quite regret it cuz I just realised that he could write better than me and thy BFS will look bad. Haha.

Barbeque today at 6! I am so looking forward to meeting you guys and talking my heart out =) Look forward to pictures tomorrow! And a new set in my Flickr!

I think my blog entries are getting more and more sucky day by day. I think novelling is draining everything out of me. Well, I should be finishing the novel in about 8 days and plus 2 more days of editing I think I should do quite a good round up.

My novel is about a legend behind the Great Wall of China. I changed a lot of it though- I made up stuff- mostly stuff in the past. The main story is actually featuring the hero- Wan Xi and his wife who till Chapter 2 has appeared yet. So yup, I shall ask some IT Expert to try and help me convert the word file into a PDF so I can post in here and everyone can enjoy my not-so-masterpiece masterpiece =)

Chao! Got to stop slacking now!

7 Weeks more to go

One week down! I can't say that the Holidays are like really fun? Guess the fun hasn't started. I just created a new user on my computer and transferred all files there. Seems like there is some stupid adware whatever that's slowing down my computer.

There was the first parade after many many weeks today! And the Sec 1s even did drill in the rain!
I'm working on a novel! And I have about 25 days to finish it? Yup, so expect to see lesser blogging =(

Here's my participation icon though!



Yup, I shall continue novelling! Chao!

Happy Deepavalli!

SPKR is in India right now, being my closest Indian friend he supposed to be inviting me to his house during this wonderful Festival of Lights. Oswin, on the other hand, is travelling the opposite direction to the country of many islands- Indonesia. I have never really touched the mainland of that country before- I only went to Ria Islands wherever that is.

So here am I missing the wonderful festival of lights at SPKR's house sitting on the computer with nothing to type. After listening to the SG Show, I have thought of setting up a podcast. But I think about all the obstacles- nothing to talk about, unability to keep up with the thingy, lousy mic, noobness in using the Podcasting software that edits sound blah blah blah that I downloaded, my podcast being lousy. The obstacles are endless, I doubt I'll ever podcast, so I guess you guys will just have to read (READ!) the Big Fat Smiler.

I am super convinced that I am living in a multi-religious, multi-racial and multi-language country today. I was at a Chinese provision shop in Woodlands today and all the shopkeepers were Chinese. But you know what was the language on the radio? You know? (I'm starting to talk like Kwan from The Hundred Secret Senses by Amy Tan) It was Malay! Not Jiu San San, UFM, Jiu Wu Ba whatever but Malay!

And the other day, I was on the train and was totally amazed at what I saw. I Muslim family that had 6 children! And the mother was like covered totally except her hands, feet and eyes. I mean, don't they feel hot? And how do they eat? AND, the rest of the family was like also in their traditional Malay costumes. I don't even wear my whatever longpao since Primary 6.

I love this cutural phenomenon in Singapore. I am so loving it. Happy Deepavalli everyone!

I have finally decided on a photo (solo) of myself that I really (realy, really...) like. I mean being a narcissist without really showing I am, I take photos of myself with my digital camera and probably just delete them away. I guess they don't turn out nice because I took them myself. So anyway, here is the photo of myself- not taken by myself- that I really like.



Hosting courtesy of Flickr =) Feel free to steal my bandwidth, I have tonnes of it. Doubt anyone will post a picture of me on their blog though.

I spent all my time today watching tv and watermarking all my photos. All but this year's Church Camp and last year's JEP that is. Anyone can now download the original photos from my Flickr now (my Flickr is here) so I can still retain my copyright =) However, ALL RIGHTS RESERVED, whatever that means. What the heck, haha.

I am in love with the Wild Thornberries- I love Darwin. This is a picture of Darwin when I googled him. Isn't he adorable?



Haha, I'm waiting for 5.30 tomorrow! Nickolodean's showing the Thornberrys at that time =)

Cheers! If I post tomorrow I shall get a new Archive month on my Archives list! Plus, it's 15 more Days to Carrie's new album: Some Hearts!




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